January 2014 Update: Being Calm and Staying Hydrated

My favourite quote from my favourite film, made into some art this month | see it uncensored here

I started the month with a cold, and ended it with one, (sniffling as I type here!) prompting me to really think hard about my diet and eating regime. I've tried so many different things and never stuck with them, so February is going to be all about mindful eating. There's a great post on that here. Also I want to try and cut down the amount of processed foods I consume to the absolute minimum. I'm not going to start clearing out cupboards though, as that is not only too drastic but also extremely wasteful.
As well as eating, I have been consciously drinking more, with help from the Hydrate app (this links to the Android app but I'm sure there'll be something similar available for iPhones). It's great as you can set a reminder which will sound, reminding you that you need to drink, you can also set different water intake quantities, for example millilitres or ounces. I'm pretty sure that my increased water intake has helped decrease my cold symptoms, and I've drunk a minimum of 2 litres every day for the past 12 days now, apart from Thursday when I was particularly ill, but I still managed to drink 1.5 litres that day!
I've also discovered a brilliant website called calm.com, where you can do short meditation and guided meditation sessions, from 2 to 20 minutes. There's different calming scenes including beaches and calm lakes, and a variety of soothing instrumental music. There's also an iPhone app available and an Android app is apparently on the way. I'm intending to be more productive with my internet time in February, and this is definitely something I'm going to work in to my day, I think it will be especially useful during the "power down" hour that I'm hoping to implement regularly before bed (more about that in a future post)!

I'm feeling positive going into February, how do you intend to manage your #spoonie life this month? Let me know in the comments!

J x

New Year 2014: Looking Ahead and Leaving The Past in The Past

The past few weeks I've been thinking a lot about how much my health has improved over the last 18 months, and how I've continued to learn to manage my symptoms to keep me "on a level" as it were. This involves pacing, eating right and getting good sleep. Finding balance out lives is something we all strive to do, whether or not we are "spoonies". I have come to the conclusion that I don't want my symptoms to define me anymore. Yes, they will always be there, but I want to get out and live my life, I'll be 31 in January and I feel like I am missing out on life experiences, however small. I have a list of things I want to do and places I want to visit, and I also plan to step out of my comfort zone a bit more in 2014 and confront my social anxiety, whilst also being kind to myself and not overdoing it.

So what does all this mean for this blog? I want to share more of my daily "spoonie" life with you, and stop getting bogged down with lengthy posts about how chronic my illness is. I tweeted a picture the other night of my "weekly cook-up" which is an exercise I do about once a week to make sure my freezer is stocked up with easy to prepare food. I don't have energy to waste on doing this daily, so I do it in a batch.

So I could make a little post about that. Practical stuff, knowledge and tips that I can pass on. Basically what I intended this blog to be about in the first place.

I'm rambling. What I'm trying to say is that, whilst I will always have my symptoms, they don't define who I am, and they shouldn't for you either. We are all human underneath, and we are more than just our illnesses.

I will continue to refer to myself as a "spoonie" but only in the correct context. I will continue to pace, eat mindfully and keep good sleep hygiene, just as someone who has asthma continues to use their inhaler-as a tool to manage symptoms. Nothing more dramatic than that.

This is my life and this is who I am, and I intend to embrace that in 2014.

Happy New Year everybody!

It's Okay To Be Happy With A Calm Life : Quote Wall Art

When I first came across this quote I found it very reassuring and comforting, and I now use it as a sort of mantra in my everyday life.
Some people like to go out and socialise a lot, with ME/CFS I find that hard, I also don't enjoy it very much because of my anxiety. There are certain familiar social situations in which I am comfortable, but not very many. My small amount of disposable income means I can rarely take trips out by myself either.
However, I don't want to come across as self-pitying, and this is the whole point of the art work, the fact that "it's okay to be happy with a calm life". I am perfectly happy sitting at home listening to the radio and knitting, absorbing myself in a good book, or even making art!
We don't all have to be social butterflies, some of us are quiet types and some of us are louder and bolder and that wide variety is what makes the world a lovely place.

When us spoonies are frustrated that we can't do things, or annoyed by having to pace, this quote reminds us that it's okay to rest, and we know it will benefit us in the long run, we have nothing to feel guilty about.

How I see my ME/CFS started

Before I post the main details, I must explain that what follows is a short personal story of how I see my ME/CFS came about. The circumstances are personal to me, and not all cases of ME/CFS come about in the same way. The spectrum of cause and symptoms are so varied, and it is essential to bear this in mind. Disclaimer out of the way, then...

I'll begin by quoting Louise Hay. She says that "stress and worry creates feelings of guilt, fear, criticism and resentment". In the case of my ME/CFS, this started a vicious circle which led to tiredness, which further developed into the following symptoms: muscle fatigue, fibromyalgia, headaches, cognitive dysfunction, broken sleep, lack of appetite, hypersomnia, leaky gut and a depleted immune system, emotional stress, anxiety and depression. Left unchecked for a long period of time (around ten years in my case), led also to depression, and ultimately chronic fatigue (which is a myriad of the above symptoms). "Chronic" meaning long term, which then exacerbates the stress and worry, this state becomes normal for the body and mind, and therefore the process starts all over again hence the vicious circle analogy.
I believe that the only way to heal from ME/CFS at present is to take on an entire change of lifestyle. Not only do you have to treat the symptoms, you also have to treat the cause of the symptoms, otherwise you will just keep going round in the vicious circle.

The above is basically a journal extract from around 2 years ago, when I was still trying to get my head around what was wrong with me, and I wrote it in the early hours of the morning whilst reading "You Can Heal Your Life" by Louise Hay, a book recommended to me by a recovered ME/CFS sufferer. (Yes, recovered! She exists! Here!) I was trying to rationalise my state of health, and this was the most comprehensive description I could come up with at the time. As I've said, I believe you must discover the cause of your symptoms, whether they be physical, mental or even spiritual, before you can truly make changes and heal.

Hey, it might sound preachy and profound, but it's just my humble opinion.

How I came to be diagnosed with M.E/C.F.S

What follows is a very short account of how I came to be diagnosed with M.E/C.F.S. I feel that now is the right time to tell this story, it also helps to put the rest of my blog into a bit of context.

In July 2011 I finally decided that after ten years, it was about time I did something about the fact that I was "tired all the time". I was sleeping most of the day on my days off from work, just so that I could muster up enough energy to drag myself through the next block of 8 hour shifts.

I decided to start with the basics, so I just typed the following simple sentence into Google: "Why am I so tired all the time?" I got a heap of results all saying similar things including over-work, stress (in it's myriad forms), and then terms such as "under-active thyroid", "anaemia", coupled with the words "chronic" and "fatigue".

I was definitely chronically fatigued, but did I actually have M.E/C.F.S? More so did I want to admit this to myself? A week or so later my very understanding and empathetic GP told me that after doing a comprehensive set of blood tests that yes, that was the most likely explanation for my condition (basically it was a diagnosis of exclusion, i.e it couldn't clearly be anything else), but a neurologist would be able to confirm the diagnosis.

My GP suggested that I have some time off work there and then, but I was adamant that I would be okay and I would fight it (literally it turned out) and I would be healed by the time I was 30. This gave me 18 months to "fix" myself.

For the next six months I researched myalgic encephalomyletis, or chronic fatigue syndrome. I read a lot of books about the illness and referenced many things on the internet. I kept going to work. I felt that if I ignored the symptoms (!!!) to a certain extent, rested as much as possible on my days off, made small changes to my diet, kept up with my Perrin and acupuncture appointments, as well as changing my duties and responsibilities in my job, that would be enough to overcome the illness. It wasn't.

By November 2011 I was almost permanently suffering with a heavy cold and sinus infection, which eventually worked it's way into my digestive system so I wasn't eating properly either. I was called for jury duty, and this put extra stress on my system both physically and emotionally. No sooner was that over than I went back to work, thinking that if I could just get through the busy Christmas period (I work in retail) that I could start afresh in the new year.

I managed one shift back at work after jury duty, and then got REALLY sick, went back to the GP, who basically said (in the nicest way possible) "I told you so", and signed me off for a month.

She also recommended I start a course of anti-depressants, as I was showing almost all the symptoms of depression. I decided to take the herbal remedy route, one of the main reasons being that I cannot swallow pills, but there were myriad factors involved. This was a completely personal decision, and without getting into the politics and statistics about it, all I know is that if I hadn't started taking them, I would not be typing this now.

As I have stated before, this blog is NOT medical advice. It is a collection of tips and advice, written by someone who has personal experience of the condition known as ME/CFS. It is filled with positive, inspiring and motivational words that have helped me overcome my symptoms of ME/CFS. They may or may not work for you, but I need to share them because I want to help others.

My Recovery Journey over six months on...

I have decided it's time to resurrect this blog, under a slightly different theme. From now on my focus will be on blogging about how to focus on staying well after going into remission from ME/CFS, which is where I see myself now.

I have given the blog a new look, and made it easier to be viewed on phones for those of you who find it difficult to access a computer.

I have had a long time to reflect on how I want to share my knowledge and personal experience of having ME/CFS and have come up with a number of ways to do this, including making art and using Twitter as a platform for fellow spoonies to connect. You can even follow me if you want!

There will be two future posts, one telling a (very short) background story of how I came to be diagnosed with ME/CFS, and another about how I see it started. From then on I want to focus on the positives and the future, and share my tips and experiences to help others.

I hope to re-kindle some interest in this blog, more importantly, if I can help just one person that would be enough for me.

I hope to see you here again soon.

Please leave a comment if you would like to see me blog about a particular aspect of recovery and I will do my best to post something helpful :)

Runner vs. Chronic Fatigue Syndrome

I take no credit whatsoever for this image. I found it on Pinterest

If you keep up with my recovery progress on Twitter, you will know I regularly log my fitness progress on the website Walk Jog Run. I have been power walking for a couple of months now, and by following the training plans on their website, I have been able to pace myself and can now walk 5k in under an hour! Then something really unexpected happened-the guys from Walk Jog Run wanted to feature me as Runner Of The Week! Click the link to see my interview with them entitled "Runner vs. Chronic Fatigue Syndrome" where I talk about my CFS recovery and how getting out in the fresh air has really helped my progress.

CFS Progress Review: October 2012

I'm a bit late publishing this. I actually wasn't going to blog at all this month, simply becasue there's not actually that much new for me to tell you right now. I am keeping up with my daily practices of eating well, staying hydrated, working mindfully and exercising, plus a myriad of other things that I have mentioned previously in more detail. Nothing is perfect all the time, I don't eat right every day for example, but I know when my body needs something as it just tells me. I feel very "tuned in" now and that helps me to combat any "under the weather" feelings I might have. My body also tells me in no uncertain terms when it's had enough and it's time for me to rest-very important!

I am taking some time off work the next couple of weeks. I plan to use the time to be highly creative, and also focus on my self care. I am planning to spend a lot of the time in silence, or with peaceful music in the background, and live simply, leaving the hustle and bustle of everyday life behind, at least for a few days. I am hoping to be able to have a few 24 hour periods of digital sabbaticals too-that means no internet! I tried this last Monday and read an entire book-lovely!

As I am writing this in November, the end of this month and the beginning of December brings a lot of CFS related milestones along for me. I will be blogging about this in more detail next time, that post might just be a tad longer than this one!

Take care for now :) x

CFS Progress Review: September 2012

This month: Mortality, Priority and Moving Forward

Some of the readers of this blog (however few or many there may be) might laugh at me for contemplating my mortality at 29. But how many of you who are older did the same at my age?

I am single, have no desire for children, and certainly see no joy in trying to climb either a property or career ladder right now.

Although at one time in my life I did see value in some of these things.

Having M.E has changed me (for the better).

I have spent much of the last month and the last week in particular, sitting with my thoughts and moral beliefs and trying to get comfortable with them. If I found myself becoming uncomfortable, I asked myself why that was so. And (after a whole lot of soul searching) I came to some pleasing conclusions:

1) I am single and I embrace this freedom and indepence
2) I have no interest in having children
3) Some people might see my job as "boring" or "dead end", but I find it fulfilling and challenging
4) I am happy for making art to be my hobby or second income, I much prefer this than striving to acheive in an over-saturated industry
5)  Taking time to relax and take care of myself is just as important as wanting to actively achieve any goal I may set myself

I don't want to go into detail about any of these points, as they are are private and personal to me. They could be thought of as my "big" life choices/beliefs. Although I have given you a brief outline of them for a reason...

I believe that full recovery is not possible until you accept that your lifestyle and every aspect of it must change. Thinking that you want to get back to how things were before you were ill is pointless-when you think about it, how much were you enjoying or getting out of life before you were ill??? For me my life consisted of struggling to keep up with my work, my social life and spending ALL of my days off sleeping.  Who wants that lifestyle back again?

However, making change is not easy, which is why I've stuggled so much emotionally the past month. Letting go of the past and embracing the future is hard work. The points listed above could well be thought of in opposite terms twelve months ago; but now they are as they are, and reading them excites me and makes me happy and content. And that, really, is all we want out of life, isn't it?

M.E/C.F.S and Nutrition

Let Thy Food Be Thy Medicine - JayHell

First of all, please, please, PLEASE don't mistake this post for medical advice. Although I hope to offer advice and help in my posts, the best thing for you to do to help your recovery is to see a good doctor. That's what I did and it's a key reason I have recovered so well. The content of this blog is based purely on personal experience, as we all know everyone's experience of M.E/C.F.S is different, as are their experiences of recovery strategies. Okay, are we all clear? Good.

As you will know if you are a regular reader, or Twitter/Facebook follower, I have currently completed 30 days of vegetarianism. I had toyed with this idea for a long time, even before I got ill, and once I heard and talked with my friend Julia's juicing and eating/change of diet exploits, I became even more inspired. Julia herself has suffered with M.E, and now considers herself fully recovered. She told me that the key to her recovery was tackling her diet. I decided that trying vegetarianism for a month wouldn't do me any harm.

Hydration:

I was already drinking around 4 pints of water a day. Good hydration is a basic thing and extremely important, you might think about investing in a water filter. I find that if I don't drink at least three pints of water in a day, my brain fog comes back immediately, my aches and pains (which admittedly are minimal now) are exacerbated, and I get a horrid tension/pressure headache. To drink more was a basic rule which I strictly adhered to during the first few months of my recovery, and it quickly became a habit that has now become the norm for me.

Mindful eating:

Personally, I'm not into the idea of elimination diets. Of course, if you have a severe food allergy, perhaps the best thing to do is to go and speak to a professional. But I knew I had been born intolerant to cow's milk, and these symptoms returned in my adult life; also I had always been suspicious of a yeast allergy because of my candida symptoms. So I simply stopped eating things with cow's milk and yeast in them.
The key for me was to be mindful about the food I was consuming and vegetarianism really brought this home to me. I had to think about the food I was preparing, and how I could make a filling, tasty meal without absent-mindedly throwing together a couple of chops and some steamed vegetables. There's nothing wrong with that in itself, but what if the meat has been processed, or pumped full of chemicals? Has the animal had a stressful life and even worse, a stressful death? Are the vegetables processed or freshy prepared?

I watched the River Cottage series "Veg Every Day", and a lot of what Hugh Fearnley-Whittingstall said in the programmes made a lot of sense to me. Inspired by Hugh's words, from now on I will try to apply the following in my eating: animal flesh is the most precious of food resources, as another living being has given it's life so that we can be fed, and ultimately carry on living ourselves. So, if you are going to consume animals, perhaps it is a good idea to make sure you know the source of your meat and fish, use it as a "treat" meal, or a special occasion, and in general just be mindful of everything you are consuming. Don't feel guilty about eating things like chocolate-just know that you are, and what the consequences may be if you eat too much!

Being a "veggie" with M.E:

I haven't told many people about the last 30 days. I rarely eat out. I have no family or dependents to cook for. Perhaps you think I've had it easy. But remember I am recovering from M.E, and I still get very tired from time to time, and my body still lets me down occasionally, both physically and mentally. I have thought about little else other than food in the last month (it doesn't help that I work in a supermarket) and how my diet affects my health. Cooking fresh food every day, thinking about meals, and food shopping takes effort. Adapting to a new diet takes mental strength. But after a month, I really don't feel like I'm craving a steak or a sausage sandwich. We're more than half way through the day and although I've had plenty of opportunity to make a fried breakfast or add tuna fish to my lunchtime pasta, I've chosen not to; and this makes me wonder how much of a shift has really been made in my outlook on food and diet. I'm just not that enthralled by meat or fish any more.

I'm not saying in this post that anyone should become vegetarian, or do what I did, or that if you do you will suddenly recover from M.E.
People still ask me if I am "better" now. I tell them I am getting there. Some days I wake up and feel brilliant and full of energy, some days not so much. The difference being I can tell the difference between one day and the next, and I whether I have the energy or not, I ALWAYS get out of bed. I didn't do that nine months ago.

I repeat once again, I am not telling you what to to with your life, I am not offering medical advice, I am just offering an honest point of view. I will say this though. I STRONGLY believe that looking into your diet can help you tremendously in your recovery. I say this because it has definitely helped me and my friend Julia, and I want to share my experiences in order to offer help and support to others.

Also, I lost 6 pounds doing this! Although (yes, another disclaimer) this is NOT a diet plan!!!

Get inspired and have a look at some of the things I cooked myself in the past 30 days (includes cakes!)

Things I Have Eaten

Constructive comments are appreciated.

Thanks for reading, sorry it was a long one!

Jen :) x

CFS Progress Review: July 2012

I have been thinking during the past couple of days, how I am going to approach writing this blog post. Taking my time and being mindful over things seems to be the new trend in my life right now. Previously I would just rush into doing things without considering the ramifications, and look where it got me!

While making notes for this post, I referred back to the long-term goals I'd set myself in June. The first one being to incorporate everything that helped my initial recovery into my daily life; a key part of this is meditation. I try to practise most days, and my body often lets me know when it's time to have a few quiet moments. But I also have no strict regime, as I feel this restricts my personal lifestyle.

I am slowly getting back into some sort of fitness routine. I try and go for a walk daily, around one mile. Being out in the fresh air is lovely, and can help clear mild headaches and brain fog, especially if I find I have been sat in front of the laptop for a little too long! The best time I find is early morning, before the world has woken up-although this doesn't happen every day, sometimes I am more than happy to have a lie in-more differences from my previous lifestyle!

I would like to empahsise that while I am working again, it is NOT full time, it's precisely eight hours a week split in to two four hour shifts. I still have symptoms of M.E/C.F.S, although they are mild now. There are some days where I don't feel any symptoms at all, but I do still get post-exertional malaise. Things aren't perfect, I still have to pace and rest regularly. It also helps that I have returned to many staff and management changes at work, and a more positive working atmosphere. It's like walking into a brand new job!

Another key aspect of my symptom management comes from diet. After talking to my friend Jules Dolly, and reading her blog, especially her posts about juicing, I decided that constantly turning to junk food for a quick sugar rush was not the way forward. By doing this I found I was slipping back into aspects of my old lifestyle that I wasn't happy about. I haven't made radical changes like Julia did, but I have started to incorporate homemade fruit and vegetable juices into my daily diet. After only three days I can already start to feel changes for the better in my body.

I booked myself a long overdue massage. My therapist told me she found no major problems with my joints or muscles (HOORAY!) but that the entire right sideof my body seemed more tense than the left side; we mulled over a few things as to what it could be, but in the end she concluded that it might just be where the tension seems to gather in my body-in some people it collects in shoulders and neck, for example. She recommended I bathe in Epsom Salts (available cheaply from good hardware stores). They contain magnesium sulphate, and two tablespoons added to a very warm bath can help relax muscles, draw toxins from the body and sedate the central nervous system. So a perfect combination along with the homemade bath melts I had bought from Folksy; and let me tell you it's DEEPLY relaxing! Best bath ever-you can keep your Radox -from now on, this is the way forward!

I am currently working on some brainstorming/vision boards to help me decide what I want to do/achieve with the next six months of my life. Of course I will keep you updated on here; I really hope this blog is an inspiration and encouragement to those who may read it.

CFS Progress Review: June 2012

Once again, my diary entries get more sparse as I get better and better. Here's a summary of what's happened in June.

• While I was away on holiday I talked at length with my mum about what sorts of things are important to me now I am recovering. She was concerned that the fact I was toying with the idea of moving to Scotland would have a detrimental effect on my recovery. I had been thinking about this for some time previous to our discussion, and as well as it not being a practical idea, I wanted to save the magic of the area as a holiday destination instead of making it mundane and ordinary by turning into my permanent residence. I would still love to live by the sea though. One day...
• When I first went down with major CFS symptoms, my life literally stopped. Over the six month period of my recovery, I have been able to re-evaluate my personal priorities, and only re-introduce the things that I want in my life. I have chosen quality over quantity in many aspects, and I am finding I get a lot more out of life now. There seems to be a purpose and a meaning to many of the things I am doing that I just couldn't grasp before I was really ill.
• I have been exercising a lot more. Well, I say exercise, what I actually mean is walking, yoga and meditation. I have decided I will not return to the gym, that nature and fresh air provide all the fitness equipment I need-although I have taken ownership of an exercise bike for particularly bad weather days! I now try to walk almost every day, while keeping in a rhythm with my pacing so that I don't end up in a cycle of "boom and bust". I am also feeling the fantastic adrenaline/endorphine rush that comes with exercising out in the fresh air. I have missed that.
• My feathered friend, Jimmy the budgie passed away. Say what you like about animals, but he was with me through a very rough time with this illness, and his chirruping and funny talking made me smile even on my blackest of days. Check out my friend Julia's new blog God Is Dog Spelt Backwards to read of animals and their owner's healing stories.
• I have saved the biggest news for last. My GP has declared me now "fit for work" hooray! I will be going back on a phased return.

As mentioned earlier, I have been re-evaluating my whole life, especially more towards the latter end of my recovery. I have come up with three goals to guide me through the next six months:

1. Maintain a good state of health by applying all knowledge learned within the past twelve months.
2. Steadily increase working hours up to sixteen per week, using phased return.
3. Enjoy creative pursuits and other hobbies to enhance physical and mental wellbeing.

Only three goals, but once again focusing on quality not quantity. And those goals in themselves are quite big, if you think about all that could possibly be involved! These three items will be the focus of my blog for the rest of the year.

I shall finish with a quote from Friedrich Nietzsche, the german philosopher. Not the most concise of quotes, but it certainly resonates with me:

"But what if pleasure and pain should be so closely connected that he who wants the greatest possible amount of the one must also have the greatest possible amount of the other, that he who wants to experience the "heavenly high jubilation" must also be ready to be "sorrowful unto death"? And it is so, perhaps!"

Or, if you'd rather, in the words of Stereophonics, "You gotta go there, to come back..."

Enjoy the second half of the year folks! x

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=m4tcRlHY-3Q 

This blog post is written

in memory of Jimmy Stickybeak the 2nd

2007-2012

CFS Progress Review: May 2012

As you know, I take most of the content for these posts from my diary entries. These have been getting more and more scarce as I have got better. Having said that, here is a short list of things I have learned about my progress over the last month:

• As I am progressing in my recovery, I am finding it easier to focus on the broader aspects of my life, and as a result of this experience, I have found that my priorities in life have shifted. I am also beginning to grow in confidence each day now.
• I find that my cognitive ability has improved to the point where I can methodically work through a problem, come up with a solution and then act on it (for example my personal finances).
• Beginning a course of Cognitive Behavioural Therapy (referred by my GP) is helping me to deal with stress and confidence in a constructive and positive way.
• As my ME/CFS symptoms begin to go into remission, I am starting to focus on the future, and what changes I would like to make to my lifestyle to ensure I never have to suffer this condition at it's worst ever again.

Well, I told you it was short and sweet, but hopefully reading these entries gives you a glance into how I have managed to progress so far over the past few months. I hope I can inspire others to do the same.

Enjoy the long bank holiday everyone!

Goals 1 : Deadlines 0

I'm being a bit cryptic with the title of this blog post, but the main theme is to have only one goal, and that's NO deadlines.
When you have ME/CFS the last thing you need is pressure. Pressure creates stress, and stress exacerbates ME/CFS.
Ninety nine percent of my time before I got ill was spent making lists of things to do, things I needed to buy-for example food shopping-or places I needed to go. And then doing ALL those things in very short spaces of time.

I no longer have the energy to do all these things, and on bad days it's as hard to simply make food for myself, as it is to walk to the shops on a relatively good day.
I was a good few months into my recovery before I decided that the solution to a large part of my previous lifestyle stresses was to eliminate deadlines from my life.
For example if my mum asked me if I wanted to go out for the day, the day before I would have to tell her "I'll have to see how I feel in the morning", whereas previously it had always been me telling her where I needed to go and what I wanted to do.

For a perfectionist personality like myself, eliminating deadlines has been hard, and has meant a couple of major lifestyle changes which have taken some coming to terms with. On the whole though, as I have come to accept my new way of life, I have become more content with living in the moment, one day at a time.

If you live with chronic illness, how do you go about setting goals for yourself, or structuring your days? I'd love to hear from you in the comments.

CFS Progress Review: March 2012

Here's my progress review for March. I'd love to know if any of you can relate to it. As usual, it's a list of short statements about what I've learned about myself and the illness over the past month.

-PACING, PACING, PACING

-Acceptance is the first stage on the road to true recovery (honest)

-Fresh air is much better for relaxing than “screen time” (e.g with the laptop)

-Relaxation mp3s: they do exactly what it says on the tin (good ones anyway!)

-Living in the moment is more productive than worrying about the past or the future

-THERE IS NO REASON FOR ME TO FEEL GUILTY I HAVE DONE NOTHING WRONG

-Having a good bedtime/night-time routine is just as important as pacing throughout the day

-Water decreases the need for painkillers

-Perhaps the fact that my diary entries are shorter means there's less troubling me

-A change is as good as a rest (although slightly more tiring!)

-It's called “pain relief” for a reason!

-Starting a paleolithic diet made me realise you truly are what you eat (10 days in now...)

My wonderful GP said to me only last week “I know you have the determination and courage to get through this”. I feel so lucky and blessed to have her faith in me. I have had lots of support from family and friends as well, I know some of you aren't as lucky, and I hope my little tid-bits are of some comfort and hope to you in hard times :)

Onwards and upwards, as they say!

Art Studio Makeover: Creative CFS Recovery

Have you ever heard the phrase, "my head's a shed"? In my current situation, use it a lot. But instead of it being a metaphor, today I am blogging about a real "shed" which, when I'd tidied it all, actually helped me to think a lot more clearly about where I want my future with (and hopefully after) CFS/ME to take me. And in time-honoured fashion, here are the classic "before" and "after" photographs.

The full photo-journal of my craft room makeover can be found on my Flickr.

Now I have a tidy space in which to create. I can now motivate myself to do little bits here and there and in being creative, enhance my recovery process.

Each day I meet more creative people who have the same illness as me; it feels good to know I am not alone and there are people out there who really are EXACTLY like me.